14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

I guessed you must have been in the shower I hope it was hot....it's good to have a safe place.

That's the problem Jacques, not having the choice on where I go.

I greatly appreciate the support sincerely thank you j

[Jacques]

Oh my angel yo know me too well, yes i feel so safe their.

I wish their where another way, can you talk to them about the bad experiances in that facility, maybe they can transfer you to another facility.

Karen i will always be here for you, i am looking up MHU's online, but no luck with rural vic.  sorry

[hiddenite]

Jacques as soon as I saw the man who was house bound I was shocked, and I knew it would effect you deeply. Just too close to home.

I hope you are prepared tonight.

There are no other places I have to go where the treating team work from. That's why I end up in the same place. They handle the eastern part of Melbourne.

[Jacques]

You are spot on Karen, it was like looking at myself, i was terrified.

yes i think i am, i will be here if you want to talk during the show. i think tonight will be exceptionally tough on you.

Karen i am sorry you have no other options, i really hope this time it is different.  i wish i could protect you Karen, you mean so much to me.

[hiddenite]

I wished I could do more for you I came online straight away last night asking if you were ok. I knew you would be in such a dark place I was so concerned for you.

I wish I could be protected I feel so overwhelmed

[Jacques]

I know you did Karen, i saw your message about half way through the show, i knew if i spoke to you it would make you more worried, you are such a great friend, the things i was thinking last night scared the shit out of me, i could imagine how much more you would have worried about me.

Karen, i promise tonight i will talk to you, i feel better prepared, please if you are in the same situation as i was last night, talk to me, you can't say anything more scary than i was thinking last night.

I know you feel overwhelmed my angel, i can see it in your writing, maybe an idea to distract, it is out of your hands now, the treating team will make their decision, you can't change the future, so stay in the present.

[hiddenite]

What you felt last night is how I feel now. And then some.....

[Jacques]

I know Karen, it is really tough for you at the moment, what a day you have had, you never seem to get a break.

Karen make sure you call lifeline if you need it.  how did i distract last night, well after the show i listened to music as loud as i could stand it, it was the only way to get rid of the thoughts.

Karen maybe the rubber band might be a good idea tonight. every time you have those thoughts snap it.

Maybe even step out the back of the house and take in some deep breaths, it is what i do and it does work sometimes.

[hiddenite]

Have you tried the rubber band. Jacques,did it help?

Did you do any work on the house today?

[Jacques]

KAren i did find the rubber band worked, it is a good distraction, it takes your mind back to the present.

Well the house, yes i did, i have cut the masonite underlay for the toilet, it was a complex shape to make, then i started with the top layer of plaster on the walls, and then i started painting the ceiling, just waiting for the plumber, he s so busy it does not look like it will be this week.